Let me tell you a story.
The story of my new eyes.
The story that left me in staggering in its wake, to be shown that nothing is a coincidence, and everything has interwoven linkages to the past and the future.
The story is from the years where I was still with the corporate world, as a Sales Director of
I was in Hyderabad in December 2013, on a sales trip to meet new clients.
As I woke up one morning in my hotel room, I realized that I couldn’t see anything properly. I wore my contact lenses and tried again, but to no avail. I removed the lenses, tried on my glasses, still the same blur. No matter how much I rubbed and washed my eyes, my sight simply wouldn’t clear.
It was as though someone had fogged my vision, put a veil over my eyes. I was in full-blown panic mode when I realized that nothing was working. It was rather stressful to go through the day with half vision. I called up my doctor back in Gurgaon, who prescribed lubricating drops and assured me that she would investigate it once I was back from the trip. It was meant to assure me, but it didn’t. I kept imagining the worst and multiple scenarios ran through my mind.
After spending two miserable days, I had a dream on the return flight.
In the first part of the dream, I saw my eyes being operated (I was to later know that this was a psychic vision, but at that time I treated it like a dream). Further on, I saw myself as a young girl, in Germany in World War 2. I saw myself struggling as I witnessed heinous things being done to my family. I squeezed my eyes shut, but the images seemed to be imprinted there. I saw myself being tortured for days and months in a camp. I do recall intense pain in my forehead and eye area all throughout my past life. I died with a blow to my head, and felt my skull fracturing in my last moments.
When I woke up, I was sweating and had a blinding headache and throbbing sensation in the eye area. All the images that I had seen, were to stay with me for a long time. I knew that something significant had been shown to me, but I couldn’t completely decode it.
Meanwhile, I had booked an appointment for the next day with my ophthalmologist. My checkup revealed something very surprising. I had cataracts in both my eyes- and I was not even 40! This disease is extremely rare in young people and usually doesn’t happen without an underlying cause like diabetes or cancer (thank God I was clean on these accounts).
The X-ray was even more surreal- it showed a clear crack- like someone had cut the eye into two halves. Luckily, it had barely missed the retina. The pattern was repeated in the other eye as well. It was baffling to say the least. Two mirror images- both cracked in the centre! I knew by then that this was showing me something more than what the doctors
were able to share.
I was told that surgery would be the answer but after a few months/years. Till then, I was asked to manage myself and I was told that I would be fine.
Except that I wasn’t.
I kept seeing floaters, had dull headaches, blurry visions, pain at the base of my skull- not enough to ring the warning bells, but enough to keep me in discomfort. Fear, confusion and “why me” kept me in fear and agony. The dream, the visions and the horror played behind my eyes all the time. Life was difficult without proper sight.
After struggling like this for over three years, I had my Spiritual Awakening. I was told that this pain came towards the end of my awakening cycle as I had to let go of my karmic baggage, my past life fears and patterns and “see” clearly.
Our eyes are the windows to our Soul.
When we are uncomfortable with seeing pain and abuse, we create a barrier between ourselves and our environment. This is to protect us from what we don not wish to see or experience. We want to escape but we don’t know-how.
This barrier comes as weakening of the eyesight, floaters, discomfort and recurring infection. We don’t want to see, so we blur it out. Simple. Kids do that a lot too. Most of them wear glasses nowadays- escaping something they don’t know how to deal with?
In my case, the cataract represented my past life pattern of not being able to take a stand and see things with clarity. The pattern was of deluding myself and making excuses for my reality.
In this life though, my soul was having none of that. I had been pushed to make a life-changing choice in that very year after resisting it for many years. The resistance caused the eyes to damage. I just didn’t want to “see” the reality, and I wasn’t choosing to leave. My body was suffering as a result.
I went on to have both my surgeries – successfully- in 2018. I strongly believe that it was delayed because of my resistance to see my painfully and to let go.
And it is not by coincidence that for 2 years before the diagnosis, I was chanting this affirmation:
“As my soul expands and I ascend towards Light, I open myself to see through a set of new eyes. To be able to “see” clearly what is blurred by fear, to be able to cut through the darkness. Let clarity dawn into my life, let karmic blockages be released and washed away to set me free.”
And here I was! Little did I realize that the liberation of my soul would come through a new set of eyes!
As I ascended further in Spirituality, I began to pull more and more Light into my body. This time, there was no discomfort because I had already addressed the past life traumas and released the patterns that were holding me from imbibing more Light.
As a Spiritual Coach, it is my endeavor to enable people to see this Soul/Mind/Body connect. This is just one story to demonstrate this connect. Every deep experience – be it pain or love- remains etched in the cellular memory of our Soul Blueprint. Every disease is an imbalance or release of our patterns and fears. Our soul memory carries it all.
Nothing is a coincidence. Not my eyes, and not your reading this!